Song #13: This Song Is An Illusion

you wanna know a goddamn truth?
no-one cares about your bluetooth
no-one good, at very least
and no-one cares about that leet speak

[STAGING INSTRUMENTAL]

[A CAPELLA]
didn’t you know
[A CAPELLA END]
it’s all an illusion
nothing here is for real
there is no spoon
there is no moon
I don’t expect you to believe me
but at last it’s worth a try
you guys only think you see me
[A CAPELLA]
if you knew the truth, you’d cry
[A CAPELLA END]

this song is nothing but an illusion
and no, there is no solution
and oh my god, oh dear lord
there is no spoon, there is no sword

this is why the song is poorly written
in truth, you don’t have that kitten
trust The Matrix, there’s no spoon
trust this song, there’s no moon

the US didn’t actually reach it
even though they think they did
they US will actually never reach it
they haven’t yet got out of the crib

didn’t you know
it’s all an illusion
nothing here is for real
there is no spoon
there is no moon
I don’t expect you to believe me
but at last it’s worth a try
you guys only think you see me
if you knew the truth, you’d cry

Song #12: Not Since That Day

not since that day
not since that day

not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away
not since that day
not since the day
you wanted everything your very own way
and now you are left all alone again

not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away
ever since that day
I hate to see your smile
ever since that day
I love to hate your love to me
my love was never true

[A CAPELLA]
was it?
[A CAPELLA END]

not since that day
never since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away

those memories will last forever
those days have gone lost for ages
not since that day
never since that day
well, nowaday
I don’t love those kisses
no more

not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
(not since that day)

Poetry: Till The Evanescence of Snow

Nothing is certain
As the laughter of summer turns to ice
No-one is secured
As summer is frozen down to ice
Nothing will ever be the same
As the realm of winter came

Will we not suffer?
Will we not freeze?
Yet another month
Till the warmth kills the grip
Winter, giving in to the spring
Will it ever appear?
Will it ever stand clear?

Will this month
Cold and creeping
Ever turn back
To the hell of ice
From where it belong?

Another child dies
And the devil may know
That he will not turn up
Till the evanescence of snow

A month has passed
And no change appeared
Will there ever be a change
Out in the fields?

So much to live for
So much to die for
Snow wherever you see
Faith in seasons keeps me alive
But when does my faith turn to doubt?

Living for surviving
This is no life
Living for dying
There is no life
No life in the winter
No life in the snow
No life in a world
A non-seasoned world

Men are dying
Women crying
No bodies appearing
No evanescence of snow

No-one’s caring
No light to glow
No evanescence of snow.

Spelling and stuff like that was fixed on October 11, 2012.

Song #11: Russian Roulette

one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette
living without ease
not living at all
one has to be chosen
but I know I will crawl
into madness and beg
for this life to return
for you to burn
I want you to die
I want you to cry
russian roulette
life is a game of russian roulette
one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette
one out of six
one has to die
bullets in a mix
one wife will now cry

[INSTRUMENTAL]

a game of brave men
a game not made for the cowards
a game of us
a game
life is a game of russian roulette

one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette
living without ease
not living at all
one has to be chosen
but I know I will crawl
into madness and beg
for this life to return
for you to burn
I want you to die
I want you to cry
russian roulette
life is a game of russian roulette
one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette
one out of six
one has to die
bullets in a mix
one wife will now cry

[INSTRUMENTAL]

one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette

[A CAPPELA]
one shot in the floor
and a shot in the head
life is a game of russian roulette
[A CAPPELA END]

Song #10: Stand Alone Complex

standing alone
time to die
creeping soon
time to cry

I’m all alone
imprisoned for life
no-one is human
no-one is sane

thoughts of dying
thoughts of death
thoughts of destruction
thoughts of my wrath

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

I’m here all alone
why don’t you let me out
innocence imprisoned
and so is the love

a replica, shell
so am I
no-one to turn to
no-one to trust

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

my heart’s cold
so cold
my breath’s dead
so dead

I will always stand alone
I will always stay in the cage of mine
stand alone complex
I will always stand alone

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

Song #9: Get A Grip

GET A GRIP – AKI
2006.12.20

he betrayed you long ago
you used to be his lover
now, your a waiter, driver, hooker and a cook
you sit around and cry
cut a wound with that knife
opening a new scar
wish that you would die

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
”i will never cry”

at first you both were happy
then you started doing what he had to do as well
you didn’t even notice how deep you fell
until it was too late
until he was hitting you at least once a day
it’s not easy having winter all around in May
you have to try, have to try breaking through
don’t try tricking me, cause I already know

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
”i will never cry”

[INSTRUMENTAL]

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
”i will never cry”

Song #8: Fight The End

we can’t accept what just must happen
tell me
will we accept what’s about to happen
to us
to our love
the end is possible to rearrange
let’s go ahead and kill the end

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

I won’t accept a fight to be the end
I won’t accept our love to go to hell
I will stand up
I will fight the end

I will travel anywhere
killing all the things that killed our love
a love so sweet
can’t end like that

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

you and me
we’ll fight the end
together
we’ll stand tall
and we will fight the end

First Place in Poetry Competition

We had a poetry competion in school due to Valentine’s Day, which I won. There was about 100 poems sent in, in the classes 6 – 9. The first price was 200 SEK to be spent in cinema visits.

–Aki

Song #7: The Death Of You

THE DEATH OF YOU – AKI
2007.02.16

[CALM INSTRUMENTAL]

I know you love me
and oh my god
I love you too
(I love you too)
but this cannot go on
as the blood colors the curtains of our home
I know that this will be our last night
my love
(I’m not good for you)
(I’m not enough for you)
(I’m not the one for you)
(I will be the death of you)

you have to leave me here to fall
you have to stop those tears and let me die
you got to finish this last call
I won’t let you see how I cry
over you
you have to leave me here to fall
please move
or I will be the (death of you)

you knew this wouldn’t last forever
we have different lives and all that matters
is your life, your happiness on earth
I want to see you cry
I want to see you hate the me you love
go ahead and make my day
go ahead and blow my head off
or I will be the (death of you)
I will be the death of you

I will jump beyond the moon
please don’t break my fall
I want to die alone
please, finish up this call
(I love you)

[REPETITIVE INSTRUMENTAL]

you have wasted an entire life
on living here
by my side
well, this is enough
and I won’t let you suffer
you will not suffer anymore
I won’t let you break my fall
I won’t let you continue our call

this is my life
I can do whatever I want
you cannot stop that knife
no, you don’t
let me die alone
or I will be the death of you

[REPETITIVE, FAST INSTRUMENTAL]

(I will be the death of you)
(I will be the death of you)

you knew this wouldn’t last forever
we have different lives and all that matters
is your life, your happiness on earth
I want to see you cry
I want to see you hate the me you love
go ahead and make my day
go ahead and blow my head off
or I will be the (death of you)
I will be the death of you

[A CAPPELA]
(you knew this wouldn’t last forever)
(we have different lives and all that matters)
(is your life, your happiness on earth)
(I want to see you cry)
(I want to see you hate the me you love)
(go ahead and make my day)
(go ahead and blow my head off)
(or I will be the death of you)
(I will be the death of you)
[A CAPPELA END]

[SHORT DRUM INSTRUMENTAL]

I will be the death of you
(I will be the death of you)
[A CAPPELA]
I will be the death of you
[A CAPPELA END]

[CALM INSTRUMENTAL, FADING]