Too Fast

Is it just me, or is the time moving incredibly fast? A minute ago it was early December and everything was more or less calm. Now it’s late January. When someone gratuated me at my name-day (17th January), I replied ”huh? But my name-day is in January, not November!”. What the hell is happening? It hasn’t been a month of the new year already… It will always be 2007 for me.


Can it Be Better?

Okay, I’m sick, but it seems like it does have pros!

I just got the films I ordered from! The first film is Joel Schumacher’s 2004 film based upon Andrew Lloyd Webber’s masterpiece musical with the same name; The Phantom of the Opera! The other film is a filmed concert with symphonic power metal act Kamelot – One Cold Winter’s Night, 2006 in Norway. Double win!

So… Can it be better? Now I only have one problem – what to see first?!

For My Pain… – Fallen

For My Pain… is a Finnish gothic metal band which I got to hear of mainly because their keyboardist is Nightwish’s lead member Tuomas Holopainen. They released their debut album, the masterpiece ”Fallen”, in 2003, and they released a following single with three new songs, called ”Killing Romance”, in 2004, but since then, they haven’t released anything. A shame, that’s what it is.

The album opener is ”My Wound is Deeper Than Yours”, and according to me the song doesn’t quite work as an opener. It’s too boring. You simply can’t make someone understand the potential of Fallen by a song like this one. Sorry, but frankly… fail.

Something I like loads about For My Pain… is that they combine so many different music genres and styles. They can play sad, depressive songs, hard, heavy songs, and happy songs. An example of the latter is the second track, ”Dancer in the Dark”. It’s a soooo good feel-good song. Wohoo!

”Queen Misery” is one of the greatest highlights of the album. It’s like good FMP songs are, it’s sad and happy at the same time, depending on how you see it, what you listen for. That’s cool. And you just HAVE to love that chorus.

”Sea of Emotions” is not very high up on my plays, yet it is a good song. I think, though, that it’s too predictable. I like the whispering before the chorus, and the keyboard in the chorus. It’s a very experimental song, I’d say.

The fifth track, entitled ”Rapture of Lust” has a really cool guitar intro and chorus (it’s about the same notes on vocals instead). I also like the vocals on this song, very experimental (like all their music, heh). This is another song that can be both sad and happy. Me like. The guitar solo at about three minutes is… really cool.

”Broken Days” is probably my favorite of the album, and every time I listen to it I really recognize my life story among the lyrics… Sad, isn’t it?

According to me, ”Dear Carniwhore” is the worse song of the album, way worse than the other songs. I guess every album needs a really heavy song though, and that’s good. It makes me think of some Metallica song, can’t recall which one. Maybe the end of the chorus of Enter Sandman?

”Bed of Dead Leaves”… there’s nothing wrong about the song… it has never succeeded to get through to me though. I can’t understand why. I guess I would count it as neutral. A five if I had to grade it 1-10. I can at least say I like the drums on this track, they’re cool, especially at around 3:30 where it’s a short drum solo.

Okay, I’m going to be honest now. I downloaded the next song (”Autumn Harmony”) at first an hour ago, so I really don’t want to review it yet. Okay? Sorry. :/

At first, ”Tomorrow is a Closed Gate (Dead For So Long)” was my favorite track off the album, but now I don’t know. Maybe I played it too much. I’ve started to get annoyed with it. The chorus is good, though, and the lyrics reminds me of Kamelot’s ”Don’t You Cry”. It’s a good finale.

That’s all, folks. Thanks for the time.

Long Lost Love

I wrote this poem between the 16th and 19th of January, 2008.

Hush, my dear
Let the winter whisper its message
Don’t say a word
As we wander through the ages
In this winter wonderland

I can’t sleep
When we lay down in the wintery world
Don’t try to breathe
It’s hard enough to live as it is
In this winter wonderland

When everyone around me sleep forever, rest forever
I wander out in the snow
To find my long lost love
Who betrayed me long ago
Who I still feel for

The snow lay white beneath my bare feet
As I search for thy corpse in the ice
As I know I’ll never find thee.

For You

A poem I wrote on January 6, 2008.

I remember when I first met you
on the angelic field of light

Remember me?
How I held you, not to to touch you
But to keep you warm
To protect you from the rain that wet my hair?

Remember me?
How I kissed your lips under the stars
Above the seas of sorrow?
How I blew your pain away,
and lifted you high above the skies?

With my magic wand
I made your scars disappear
Only to show on my own wrist

Yet I miss that night
Yet I miss how you shined
Yet I miss how I once bled for you

For you

Spelling and stuff like that was fixed on October 11, 2012.

Bereavement of This Total Eclipse

Another one of my poems. Written 2007.12.05 – 2007.12.07.

My heart is lost between two words in a verse
I try to call for someone to aid me
But my throat is dry,
my lips are chapped
and my tongue is numb
So I am dying in the cold tonight

Fear of the dark is closing unto me
The mountains within me forever still
You said this moment is the sanctuary of my soul
But the sanctuary is too big
for both my body and my soul
So I am dying in the cold tonight

Turning from the crepuscule of the world
Reaching for the opposite hay
Reaching for the white lands of innocence
Reaching for an alternative world
bereavement of this total eclipse you call my life
So I am dying in the cold tonight

Simone Simons infected with MSRA

Symphonic metal band Epica’s singer Simone Simons is infected with MSRA, a difficultly treated disease, and they have been forced to cancel all the February shows. This is nothing that affects me as I had no plans in seeing them during February, but I’m still worried to death for the sake of this beautiful singer’s health. I hope you get better soon, Simons!

Source: Epica’s official site

Simone Simons

Kamelot – Ghost Opera

On June 5, 2007, American power metal band Kamelot released their eight studio album entitled ”Ghost Opera”. I downloaded (I am ashamed, please forgive me) the album the same summer.

Since I first heard Kamelot (with first loves like ”The Haunting (Somewhere in Time)” and ”The Black Halo”) in the summer of 2006, I’ve loved the band. There is something special with their ability to combine some of my favorite genres in metal: symphonic, progressive, power and (on later albums) gothic. My love for the band is nothing that changes with this album, not at all. As a first comment on it… I love the title and art work… I will buy it as soon as I get some money, I promise. However, I more want to buy their ”One Cold Winter’s Night” DVD. It seems cool.

Over to the review.

The album kicks off with a one minute instrumental entitled ”Solitaire”, that really feels like a waste of time, or an excuse to have eleven tracks on the album, cause it sounds much better than eleven…. A solo violin playing the most boring notes, where’s the KAMELOT? Just skip the track… I do.

”Rule the World”, the second track, is one of those songs that has nothing special that sticks out, but that it’s nothing wrong with. I like the raise of Roy Khan’s voice in the chorus, and it’s quite speedy. It doesn’t really touch me otherwise, but it’s really an okay song.

The main track has an eponymous title with the album. ”Ghost Opera” is a speedy, interesting breaking-border song. And GOD that video’s fabulous! It’s quite boring in a way, though… I can refer to Sonata Arctica’s song ”Wolf & Raven”; the song seems to have a great potential but everything fades when it sounds the same without grande changes. It’s not catchy enough.

”The Human Stain” is the fourth track of the album. It is a cynic’s view of the world: everything bad, human kind’s selfishness (”No one really wants to die to save the world”), and the wish to be an innocent child again. It is a good, cool and catchy song, that is sad and interesting with gothic metal-similarities such as the keyboard playing throughout the song.

”Blücher” is based on the sinking of the the German cruiser of the same name in World War II. It’s a bit like ”Rule the World” but better; it’s quite neutral, nothing good nor bad about it… It’s cool with the intro as well as some parts of the background that’s just filled with sounds of the war; screaming, shooting etcetera.

And here comes what I would presume is my favorite track of the album. ”Love You to Death” is a beautiful story about a couple where the girl is dying, and this is his speech to her about how he will stay by her forever, love her to death… It’s the longest song off the album (5:13) and for that I’m glad. It has a cool intro and a catchy chorus… Me like.

”Up Through the Ashes” is what I would call one of the heaviest song of the album. It’s quite angry. I like it.

”Mourning Star” is quite neutral. I’ve got nothing against it, despite it’s not one of my favorite. Guess I miss some kind of turn that never shows up.

Vocalist Roy Khan tries lots of new vocal methods in the song ”Silence of the Darkness”. It also holds a great guitar solo that has a cool, outstanding sound. I guess I’ll try it as soon as I have the powers. This is one of the songs that seems really cool live (I might go to their Stockholm concert in May, 2008, wih).

Kamelot is really good on slow, sad songs, and they usually have at least one per album. On Ghost Opera, ”Anthem” is the one. It is a sad piano song with a fascinating chorus and beautiful yet sad lyrics. I keep listening for the introduction of sudden drums in the end, by ”I’ll be the best I can”. That would sound great… WHY NOT?

The final song of the album is ”EdenEcho” which is another song that would be lovely live. It doesn’t really make it unto my mind, so I cannot count it as one of my favorites. Yet it has a cool chorus.


  1. ”Solitaire” – 1:00
  2. ”Rule the World” – 3:40
  3. ”Ghost Opera” – 4:06
  4. ”The Human Stain” – 4:01
  5. ”Blücher” – 4:03
  6. ”Love You to Death” – 5:13
  7. ”Up Through the Ashes” – 4:59
  8. ”Mourning Star” – 4:37
  9. ”Silence of the Darkness” – 3:43
  10. ”Anthem” – 4:24
  11. ”EdenEcho” – 4:13

The album also features two bonus tracks (”The Pendulous Fall” and ”Season’s End”), both which I haven’t heard.

New layout and more

Wohoo! I’ve updated Hopes Were High to WordPress 2.3, created tags instead of lots of categories, and fixed a brand new layout! I haven’t written the layout but STILL! Hope you’re all happy now! Mihihihi…